● Bad Day ㅠ..ㅠ ●

What a bad day at school and tuition class yesterday. I'll talk about tuition class first. He didn't come for tuition today ㅠ..ㅠ. sobs sobs. YES. my "fishy" tak datang tuition. Only his besfriend come yesterday.

Now, about what happening in school. I fight with my "so-called bestfriend". YEAH. That's what she call me now. I should have listen to what my mom and Pn Loh said. Saya patut dengar cakap mak saya untuk pergi asrama and stay there with my uncle. I'm so regret about it right now.

Yelah. "orang" tu kan dah popular. Dia sakit, pindah, couple, break and etc, semua orang kisah and tanya dia okey or whatever more. If me, none of them asked me like that. NOBODY care about me other than my family. Even kalau saya mati pon, takda orang kisah selain family saya. Dia kan sayang boyfriend dia. Dia dah banyak berubah semenjak ada boyfriend. Saya tahu saya ni UGLY. Tak macam dia. Ramai orang minat dia sebab dia cantik and pandai.

I'M UGLY UGLY UGLY UGLY UGLY UGLY UGLY UGLY UGLY UGLY UGLY UGLY UGLY UGLY UGLY UGLY UGLY.

Saya nak pindah. I don't care. Saya nak duduk dekat Johor with my uncle. Saya tahu yang saya tak tahu pasal lelaki macam dia tak tahu kpop.

Sometimes, saya selalu terfikir kenapa adik saya yang kena meninggal ? kenapa bukan saya ? Ya Allah, aku tahu bahawa aku sudah melampau kerana membabitkan orang yang sudah mati. Engkau ampunkanlah dosaku dan dosa Batrisyia Adriana walaupun pergaduhan ini saya ataupun dia ataupun kami berdua yang bersalah. Hanya Engkau sahaja yang faham akan perasaan ini. Engkau berikanlah kami petunjuk. Engkau berikanlah dia kebahagiaan walaupun sehingga menyebabkan kami memutuskan pertalian persahabatan kalau itu yang boleh buat dia bahagia. Bak kata IlHoon, "I'll let you go". kalau itu buat saya terpaksa

and i think that i'm also STUPID STUPID STUPID STUPID STUPID STUPID STUPID STUPID STUPID STUPID STUPID. And lastly,


I HATE MYSELF FOR BEING LIKE THIS! I HATE MYSELF FOR BEING LIKE THIS! I HATE MYSELF FOR BEING LIKE THIS!
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